Even Though It Kills Me To Have To Say.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
hey world (:
didn't go online yesterday. it was so screwed up man. I'm so gonna give my stupid Chinese teacher attitude from now on. and I'll improve on my chinese just to stuff it in her face. and NEVER will i ever give her a single bit of credit for it. NEVER !!!! omgawd man. she was supposed to be tactful, yet she was DAMN straightforward. like wtf ? and she encouraged my mom to put me in CLB =.- wtheck man. what kind of teacher does that ? its not like as if I'm beyond hope right. i can still speak Chinese. Its just that I've lost complete heart and hope in it already. i wonder how am i going to improve my Chinese since I've lost complete interest in that subject. hmm. I've dropped from the 7th place, to 14th to 26th. (class positions.) ugh. this is killing me ! hmm. nvm (: i think with Cherlyni's, Jessica and Kiki's help, I'm confident that i can score at least a B4 next time (: stupid Mt teacher. she's so in my Blacklist now. wtf. screw her. every time so BIASED. and its not because she said all those effing HORRIBLE stuff to my mom about me that's why i said that. even my other friends say that too. Always flatter the better-in-Chinese-kids. like wtf ? one-faced bitch. oh. this is immature. no point wasting my time, breath and thoughts on this lady. ugh.
I've got quite a few B3 though. i think 3 ? i failed art =.-. i think i got 2 B4 ? or one. and got C for both CME and IDPW =.- oh man. if i want to get into either 3E1 or 3E2, my results are not gonna get me anywhere. damn it. ugh. never mind. i think Ms. Xie knew that i was annoyed by my MT's teacher's constant NEGATIVE remarks about me. coz i kept fidgeting and rolling my eyes. i think she saw some of it. nvm. skip to the happy part of Friday (:
after school went to Kiki's place. slacked around for a while. played Audition on her PSP. whooo. i unlocked a few things (: hehe. its way easier than the normal audition. as in the one played on the computer. the stupid computer one. i play until level 5 don't want play liao. irritating. maybe i should go download Audition for my psp ? but my psp.. i don't think I'll be able to play it till 12345678910 years later. Because of my results .. anway then same thing. Kiki's mom and her. damn cute. fight fight, then i down there laugh at them. there were a few times where either me and Kiki was drinking water, and Kiki's mom did something funny, that we'd choke on the water, or it'll be spat out. the spat out one was almost done by me. heh. BUT ! i controlled okay. hmm. then went back to school. met Cherlyni. and waited for Kiki to finish her PTM. then off to Lot 1 (: heehee. went straight to the theatres. then Kiki suddenly got mood swing. didn't want to watch anymore. then Cherlyni sian diao. went to library chit chat for a while. then everything was back to normal already. as laughter is in all three of us' blood. so its only natural that we'll burst out laughing at some stupid thing and then back to normal (: hmm. then Kiki had a dilemma on what colour should her Ipod be. she kept changing her mind. and asking for our opinions. wah. i think she changed her mind for at least 5 times ? anyway, then she had a mood swings again. suddenly felt like watching a movie. so off we headed to catch MONSTERS VS. ALIENS at 2.35. okay, the show SUCKS. super predictable and boring. nothing much to comment. well, certain parts were funny, but the majority were boring. and most of the parts Kiki and Cherlyni were laughing at me, instead of the show, as i find some parts damn lame. and mocked laugh. then they laughed at me =.- evil. anyway it was fun going out with Kiki and Cherlyni. gonna catch Ghost of Girlfriend's past with them (: we being at comic connection was the HIGHLIGHT of the whole day. we laughed like there was no tomorrow. like mad people. all because i said some one's beard looked like fungus. as there were patches of it everywhere. not one whole thing clumped up together. and that person's identity shall remain a secret. heehee (: he's a celebrity though. with really small eyes. and for his songs, most words are said to fast. hehe (: hmm. then rushed back to school for my ptm. oh. do i even need to elaborate ? to sum it all up, it was just preposterous. those remarks made by my Mt teacher that's all. then rushed to Kiki's house to get my stuff, then rushed back home to fetch my brother and off to the movie. met Jessica. omg. both of us were SO SHAGGED man. almost fell asleep during the movie. it was boring also. and the lady sitting beside me. ugh. omg. can't stand her laughter. used hoodies to cover face, so that no one knew that eyes were closing. anyway it was dark everywhere. hmm. what else ? then went back home. i cried at the beginning of the show. but NOT because of the show. because of my results. thanks Jessica (: anyway no point crying over spilt milk ayes ? anyway I'm so afraid to face my dad. due to my results. damn. my whole world is crashing down again. forget it. its not worth it. anyway Jessica is coming my place soon (: yippee :D gonna crap with her. anyway. maybe i shall update when i come back later (: bye all :D oh and thank you Kiki for waiting for my PTM to be over. hehe (: wah. 20 minutes plus leh. thank you (:
And to you. okay fine. whatever. I'm utterly disappointed. i bet you've invited others. And acted blur in front of me. its okay. its alright. i don't need to read them either.
I will not let myself,
Cause my heart so much misery.
I try my hardest just to forget everything,
Because of you.
If you were still here,
Would you even stop or even try to prevent my world from ..
Crashing down on me ?
This is so messed up.
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